Sometimes when my head is full, I let my thoughts out through poetry…
I write and it feels good… I read my poems out loud, on my own in my room, like a mini performance just for me and as I hear myself say the words, it feels like therapy
…And then I forget all about the little notepads I’ve scribbled in and find them many moons later, shoved at the back of drawers and under my bed! Shambles!
It’s time for change!
…Today I would like to share one of my many poems with you!
I wrote it almost 10 years ago and only shared it with my mum 2 weeks ago, so this is actually a pretty big thing for me!
Like this blog post, sharing my poetry is long overdue (SORRY! My time keeping will get better, promise!)
I really hope you enjoy it!
[Deep breath… Annnnd post!]
There’s no point starting afresh
With the same frame of mind that got you in to this mess
Might as well let life flow
Try to plant happiness, you reap what you sow
Here we go…
Not a lone woman, but my own woman
Not an “I” land, but no more “My man“
Do you see?
You feel me?
…I’m gonna do me!
I can be FREE!
But I can’t lie, everyone likes company
But from who?
What the hell
Might as well have him on the list
Rather than off the list
I don’t want to be a solo artist
I’m not that great a vocalist
What I’m trying to say is…
I CAN DO THIS!
…But do I want this?
All this shit wasn’t on the list!
It’s not written down,
So it doesn’t need a tick
Somebody give me a hug…
I’m just looking for somebody to love
My friends, my family
And what about ME?
And last, but not least WoMan like
Shouldn’t She make me happy?
Make my grey days seem sunny?
“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine”
So I know I’ll be fine…
I think I lost sight…
Of what is important…
The only thing that is certain…
Faith the size of a mustard seed can move a mountain
It’s not a joke thing
So could you imagine
If my faith grew to the size of a pumpkin
…Let me not get ahead of myself, I have a tendency to do that
But I can work on that!
Lets start small and see where we end at…
A pinch of salt
A grain of sand
I’m not on my own God is holding my hand
Scratch that She is carrying me!
Let me not get too deep and…
“Though my heart is aching
Smile, even though its breaking”
I’m smiling, because I am growing!
I confess I am healed, before it is done
But it has begun!
She loves me so deeply
She sent me Her son
So I’ll take this new frame of mind and run!
…Fly with it! Take it deeper than the depths of the sea!
Because Her only son died for me…
Her Baby, for my baby!
…My Baby Daddy?
Because I am loved, I can look back fondly
What will be…
What is TRULY meant to be
I’ve had a break through
She has a plan for me, true?
So why am I chasing you?
I think now it’s time to get deep
When you look in the sand and see one set of feet don’t weep
Know that you’re safe in the palm of Her hand
And She won’t let you go till She knows you can stand
On your own two
But not just you…
Because She is in you
And shines out of YOU
And when You and I
Can stand up and say from the depths of our hearts
That this is TRUE
Then Me and You
For You to do You
And Me to do Me…
…And understand what it really means to be HAPPY
A poem By Rachel aka Bald Font
Thanks for reading…
Love Bald Font XX